Necessary and Contingent

Not only have a been thinking about this for my philosophy class but also for what to bring to Maryland. At first there was a huge pile of books in the 'I must take'. Now I have all the my books in one box. Looking around I think of things I just need to get rid of. Think in the perspective," what can I put in the back of my Kia?" Thinking this way has helped in the elimination process!
What an odd thought of us leaving. Maybe not leaving Arizona as much as leaving the West. I can honestly say I never would have dreamed of us moving to the little 'zit' on the US called Maryland. Idaho I would have expected. Or even Oregon wouldn't have been a huge surprise. No. We are moving to a state that is smaller then I can see on the map without my glasses. The best part is that there is more art there then I can even dream of. Do you know that New York is only a few hours away, and that that is where Chihulys studio is!? Not to mention that the Smithsonian and hour or less away.
I will always love AZ but it has been time past due for us to leave.

Raise a Glass

This blog has been a journal for me for a very long time. It has helped me to think about what I say before it comes out..most of the time! All my hard times I haven't written about. Maybe that is why I haven't written for a while. Maybe that is why I haven't written for most of the year. One thing that has struck me the last few days though is that I am not immortal. I can't recover faster than is necessary. I can't think that I can go without sleep for days! I can try all I want but when it comes down to it: I am still messed up. I am not trying as hard as I should because I am afraid of my emtions half the time. I can't save the world. I need to start with me.
I have to pretend that I am ok sometimes. Who doesn't do that?! But putting off feeling does nothing but give you tumors. that one I know by experience. I have felt angry at my body for that off and on for a year now. that isn't right to my body. No one should beat them selves up for something that happens that the doctors can't even explain. It is mroe then time for me to let go!
I know it won't be easy but I know that I need to or I will hurt more from something similar in the future.
I am moving to Maryland. I don't know how to feel about that. I like to call it the zit on the US. I am scared to death! Arizona is my home. I know that I need to go though. This is the best thing that can happen and I need to take it with open arms.
So here is my toast. Here is to my adventure! no matter where I go, no matter who I am with, I will look for new experiences!
~Chy

Quote...

The other day Maliea,Quayde and I were at the mall-cough,cough! it's about the size two super walmarts...not really that impressive!

I started to lock the truck and then stopped,thought for a second and changed my mind about locking it at all. I then said aloud that I was not locking it so if there is anything in it that they need take out do it now or be at risk of having it taken. Quayde in response,"The only thing in this town that is at risk of being stolen is denture cream!"

As some of you may know Prescott Arizona has been rated as one of the top five towns to retire in in the whole of America!

See his point?

I have been trying to post. Really I have but I been having problems with blogger for the last few days. Maybe there is a lock on it so I can't sign on past a certain time. That's it. I am convinced it has a problem with past 12am posts!

So I know this is late notice but here it is anyway. The Boyfriend got his mission call! He is going to the Lanning, Michigan. He leaves on September 29th. We are all very happy that he has chosen to go and I am personally really proud of him.

I know he will do a good job and I hope that he will listen to the spirit and do what it tells him to always.

My week in a nutshell

Monday: work from 10:00am till 5:30 pm. Get home at 6. get to FHE at 7. Get home from FHE/hanging out with friends after at about 11.

Tuesday: 9am get to the community college to register! 11am Go to my Aunt Shawns to talk baby shower and eat lunch. 2:30pm-ish Get to Caydens to help him get packed for Colorado and receive Honeycut and Pierce(the rats). Go play with friends from 7 pm-10pm. 10pm I am home and trying to sleep.

Wednesday: Work cleaning from 12:30-4pm. Come home for the little while and then leave again for institute-6:20pm. Got home pretty early from that-9:30pm. Then go get Dad at... or did I get Dad?

Thursday: Clean from 9:30am till 12pm. Grab lunch! Got to love Arbys 12:15-12:40. Go clean again from 12:50-4:50pm ish! Get toilet paper from the almighty Walmart-5:20. Get home at 6ish and take a quick 20 minute nap before I have to get to work. Cleaning-6:45 till ?. Finally go home and try to sleep. Yoda can suck it because when it comes to sleep and me, I can try all I want at times but there is no doing!

Friday: Work from 10am-5:30pm. Home-5:45. Have to go clean at 6:30. Why are there still Shrinks in the building!? Sit in the car till they finally all leave at 7:30pm. Leave there at 8pm to give the car to Mum to get Dad. Get dropped off at cleaning 8:20ish. finish at 9:30. Get home to sleep 9:45. Why are there stars around my head?

Saturday: Sleep! I slept in till 11am!! It took me till about 3 to get to sleep but I finally slept. Get check from cleaning to BossM at 12. 1pm get Dad to work and make stops on the way for Church stuff. Walmart at 2ish to get stuff for cooking. Home-2:30pm. Leave for fun with Judys at 4:15pm. Leave at 9pm ish to get Dad from work and go home to cook! and that is where I have been ever since.

Yes dear Readers, I have a big problem with being Idle!

Quote...

Lydia- "guess what chaiya!"

Me- "what Lyd?"

Lydia- " You were born on your birthday!"

Me- " are you sure?"

Lydia- " YEAH! mom just told me."

In loving memory

Cody,
You were what I needed, when I needed it. Strong, reliable-for the most part- and needed little immediate work. You fit the right amount of people and were small. You were even the right color! Silver. Sure, there were times where I wished you had a little more to give, but you served me well. We saw frustration and sorrow, along with happiness together.
In the end, my old friend, you had no more to give. There is nothing I can do to help you. It is time to part. You were the first car I had bought with my hard earned money. Yes, you were more then just a car! you were my car. One I will remember with a smile later on in life. But for now I must say goodbye with a tear.
Don't feel replaced. Because you hold a special place in my heart. Other cars will come and go, but you, you were my little sardine! (with the top down) My Cody (all the rest of the time).
Forever to part. I will miss you!

weddings entail....

Burns, Bruises, no sleep and exhaustion for three days after! Eloping sounds good;)

...

So sorry it took a while to explain my last post. The genius was....You can make CDs from music videos!

We have alot of music and I wanted to make a CD for a certain person that I love. I have thought for so many years that it was a different format that you have to use. Funny things you do at 1AM that proves to be brilliant! I was really tired and just happened to look down at a little button on the Realplayer that said CD not DVD. SO! I thought,"what the heck I'll have to buy CDs anyway!" Found some blank disks and hit burn. To my surprise it worked and didn't have a single problem.

So there you go! If this is nothing new to others then please don't rub it into my face. I am still pretty happy about it

Gotta love it when...

Don't you just love when you figure something out that you didn't know you could do before the moment of truth? I just had one of those moments! I just danced for joy when I did it! I will let you all know what I did after the moment the person gets the gift.

Don't you just love a good cliffhanger?!?!

Smooches!

I think this photo says it all The party was a hit!

This is the last face I painted but I don't think that the man that got it was to happy when he saw what it was:)

Little James

All the ladies that I work with will leave notes on the counter for each other. Usually they are notes like,"Lois called about this class. who wants to teach her?"

nothing interesting.This morning however I noticed a long-ish note on the counter.

It read," Most of my day was spent thing of how darn beautiful James is. Those eyes,those eyes, oh my those eyes. If only he were 50 years older-however if he was 50 years older he might not look that good-maybe even better. Yikes I'm turning into a DOLLY.

Dirty old lady lusting youth

-Ok-just kidding- but he is darn cute- and Chy- he has the hots for you."

My first thought was that it was a journal entry of M.E.'s. Then realizing that it was to me, I died of laughter. I am glad that I was the only one in the shop.So to agree with her- yes, James is really cute...and 10 years old!

The unknown

What would have happened if I hadn't had surgery? what would have happened if I had left for school, like most all the other kids in my town, who graduated my year? Or what about this one!... what would have happened if I had stayed friends with those that I don't speak to anymore?

These are the questions that I have cross my mind when I am in (what I like to call) a Dark Green mood. I call it that because it comes from a very funny children's book that I love. The Quigleys. It makes me laugh when I think of it as so.

What if though?

Well for one, I know that I wouldn't be happy right now. I have found the ONE I love. I have the best kind of friends for what feels like the first time in my life: Good ones! I am not lying to myself about what I truly feel anymore. I won't lie, it was a really hard year last year. It's just hitting me now that it was only a year ago that all outter darkness was on me. It only took one week to change what I thought was for really and what I thought was my life. I will not pretend to know what Job went through...but I can imagine how he felt.

My life is for really. I am starting to feel lightness in my life again. It feels good. It has been a long time.

Fun all around!!

So when all your friends are poor college kids that have little to no money, there is a need to still have fun but on the cheap. The problem is we live in Prescott Arizona!

Not alot to do if you don't have money... or so it may appear.

Here is a list of fun and inexpensive things that we've found.

• Barnes and Noble read alouds! Get as many books as you are allowed to and find a place to sit.Take turns reading random paragraphs aloud. You would be very surprised at how much fun this can be.
• Thursdays bowling at Plaza Bowl. This is the best day to go! It is only $2 a rack and free shoes.
• Washing cars....it only costs for the water and if you get toaster strudel at wal-mart after.
• And on that note it brings me to....Wal-Mart!! in the end we almost always end up there!
• Redbox. I don't think there is much else to say.
• Bake nights! Ok so this isn't the cheapest of things to do but it's for a potluck for our ward. So we like to all get together to cook what we need.

So after all of the fun sometimes we need to eat! not always but sometimes!

• Half priced appetizers at Applebees! They have the same quality of wings as Buffalo Wild Wings but they only cost about $4.
• Bottomless stake fries at Red Robin! They have the best!
• And there is always Taco Bell! Food and fun, always cheap...in all senses:)

There you go!!! that is most of the time what I am up to with friends. Hope that you- wherever you are- can find something fun to do without spending a fortune

Happy color!!!

I love Goodwill! You never know what you are going to find or the fun that you will have there.

For example: Cayden's Gas mask he found for $10 or.... My shoes!

There of course is a story behind the shoes. When I was 15 I bought a beautiful pair of shoes that made me smile every time I looked at them. As many of you know I am not some one that likes to wear flats but these shoes were not to be passed by!

Here is the new pair that I found for $3. They have never been worn!

oh yes, please look and be jealous!

Look carefully at the picture below

These are the old pair that I wore till they were dead,Dead,DEAD! Circa: 2008

Some people have funerals for their animals, I did for these shoes.

Thank you, whoever is out there for being the shopaholic that you must have been to not wear these pretties like I did. Also, for giving them to Goodwill for me to find!

Kicks and Giggles!

Laughter is a thing you can't expect. You can smile on demand or chuckle at a kids joke but laughter... I think I laughed hard than I have in a long time tonight as Rachelle tried(and succeeded) to sit in between Cayden and I. Started as a joke with his Dad and ended with a Rachelle in my lap!
Or maybe it is laughing at yourself. Howling at the moon when you have the hood down on your car. Laughing at the people who are driving next to you looking at you like you are the craziest thing they have ever seen. Sadly though, I maybe the craziest thing they have seen. But yet they didn't laugh.
When do you forget to laugh at the silly things?

photo post!

Here is a quick summary of what I have been up to!

Playing in Jerome with Cayden!

My Grammy Misty and aunt Kristi came to visit us in AZ! I was at work so they came to see me in action.

Maliea getting ready for her prom! I got to help with all the shopping. I am so glad you are my sister, happy 22nd birthday!

Please tell me you see the attitude here.....


I am now over the hill! I used to think 19 was REALLY old... that was when I was 10!

Bowling with best friends! Rachelle you are incredible! you don't even know how much of a good friend you are!

We had an church class on Tuesday nights and after we would go and get food from Taco Bell. This is an inside joke but read the sigh carefully and you may get it.

Hint: you can now get it at Taco Bell due to special demand;)

Thanks Melany for all the laughs!

Thayne and I went on a last minute date to Cayden's Baseball game he umpires. The other umpires were having fun playing dress up with him!

Just a few photos to show the loads of fun I have been having!

Sometimes...

1. You need to get lost to find what you need.
2. You need to lose what you like to find what you love.
3. You have to be scared to remember how to feel.
4. And you need to remember what it means to live again.

I have been craving to blog for about 2 months now but haven't taken action on it. These are some of the truths that I've found over the last year and am still figuring out how to understand them. I need to remember what it feels like to be happy again. I have been trying so hard but sometimes I fail. It is ok though. I am finding me again.

Chy