I Love it When...

People say stupido things like, 

"I know how you feel"

"I understand what you are going through"

Or even better yet,

"I completely understand because..." and then they go to their story.

I know that in life that others understand what is going on, but they in no way understand how the other is feeling. It isn't possible. It is simply a figure of speech. 

People often say that artists are tortured individuals. In complete honesty, we are simply the only ones who are willing to express the feelings inside in a way that is visible to others. Without a way to express ourselves we would be tortured.

 I wish I was better at expressing myself with words. I wish that with all my heart. I can't do that without hurting others I feel though. Whenever I open up I feel I hurt those that are closest to me. I used to carry notebook after notebook around with me. Now, I have tools of the artist's trade. I create plans and pieces. I try to create art. There is no true definition of what art is. The artist is only limited to the imagination.

I hate election years because that is all I hear about! I don't care anymore. I really, honestly don't care about who gets elected because they are both corrupt politicians. Did anyone else know that there was a 6.4 earthquake in Japan Oct 1st? I didn't because I didn't hear it on the news because they are only reporting propaganda for the election. I also didn't hear anything on Yahoo! or Google about the 7.7 earthquake in Canada other then the report I looked up on CNN.
I don't want to hear more lies about what the next President will supposedly do for the country. That is the fact of the matter.

the way I eat candy

According to my friend Paige, I eat my 3 Musketeers candy bar inappropriately. 

"you are not supposed to strip your candy bar!"

She also claimed that I was eating "Nude-get"

Hahaha. Thanks Paige!

my art

 I may be demented, but I love what I do.

Stay tuned for the next part of the series.

Dear Cold...

I hate you. I hate that my ears freeze when I run in you and that my eye glass frames are frozen by your slightest breath. I don't like my chilly toes (even when I am wearing two layers of socks), or my drippy nose.
I do like the colors that you make the leaves and hot chocolatey mornings. Snuggling on the couch with a blanket while watch old musicals. I even like the way frost looks on the windows.
I beg you: please don't let it snow for at least another month. I might not do well if you bring that dreaded, fluffy stuff.
Sincerely,
the girl that is shivering in the library.

Dylan

The only thing I want at times is to hear my best friend's voice on the other side of the wire. I didn't think that two years would be that long. It is just the few times I take the time to slow down that the flood gates open.

Without Art the Earth Would be Eh

I want to create art that makes people think. I want to challenge what is in their minds as normal and make them want more. I want to show them that there is more than just their opinions that matter. I want to show them what they have never felt before. It isn't about shocking people to me. It isn't about making them judge something that they are looking at in a way that they deem worthy. It is about showing them what I have to say, how I feel, and what I want them to know that they didn't previously know. Art is about sparking ideas and inspiring others to make a difference. Art is part of who I am and always has been. It was there for me when I felt that no one else was. It has and always will inspire me. Ultimately, it is about point of view. You can have a thousand people draw the Grand Canyon, but still end up with a thousand different unique pieces. Art is a huge part of my identity. I wouldn't change that for the world.

Laughing till the Tears Fall Down

This week is going to be an adventure. The Rondo is in the shop getting fixed; Thus, dad needs to use the Buick to get to work. I am being dropped off at school after Quayde is finished with seminary. He has to be at Seminary by 6 AM. We have to leave the house at 5:35 AM. If I want to shower then I have to either take one before bed or get up early to get one before we leave. I start class at 8:30 AM and end at 5:20 PM. Thursdays I have Institute after school that I drive and hour to get get to. It starts at 8 PM. Did I mention that it takes almost 45 minutes to get home from school? This is going to either be a really amusing week for those that have the pleasure of being within ear shot of me, or a complete melt down on my part. If you think about it, both of those are likely to happen at the same time depending on if you are you or myself. I say this because I was in tears laughing this morning over Hell knows what! Thank goodness I only have to be at the La Plata Campus on Tuesdays and Thursdays. No one quite knows how long it will take to get the Rondo fixed. It is only the Air conditioning that needs to be repaired. Knowing dealerships though, it will take a while.
Day one. let the count down begin!